k so i am officialy out of people to get help from in my life maybe someone here can help me..

normal teenage girl problem.. Relationships
but i might have a new twist..
not mentioning names to keep my mind clear of them maybe seeing this


Boy1- a guy i've known for a while always liked him.. want him bad, but saddly he is engaged... with a bitch.. but anyways

Boy2- A guy i know from band he just graduated this year and i dated him, he told me he loves me but i think he is just confused

My love- not realy a problem.. the only thing thats wrong is she is gone for another month.. and i misses her lots

Back to story

I realy realy realy realy realy need help

I know that Boy1 wants me too cause well um he tells me all the time.. anyone have any idea what is going on btween Boy1 and his girl??? cause i can't get a straght answer from him..

And I mean i love Boy2 and all but more like an older brother now...  cause i got to know him better.. and idk what to do with him.. he is obsest...

K well if you want to try and help thanks if not its ok

Boys
Girls
Animals
Children
Parents
How to work a DVR
How to work Tony's phone
Who can get themselves stuck in the drug system
Why a man would beat a woman
why some one can fall in love but have no love come back
The laws of physics
Math
Why i must have a job
How insainly long it has to be tell rene comes back
What happend to us to make it not want to work


But most of all I dont understand myself
To me i am probably the most complicated thing i will ever have to figure out.
If you were to hand me a test on anything that I put up there i could probably be able to figure it out. but ask me about myself and I will have a hard time answering. but again I could figure it out. It would just be harder.

so umm.. i was going to say sumtin but i forgoted what it was...
maybe ill think of somthin else.... hhmmmm

idk nevermind

and i have found the song i needed for him..
everyone probably thinks it over played or Miley Cyrus is stupid
whatever
Your stupid..
good music to sum is retarded to others..


so again theres this boy... i found his song read it..
go ahead...
i promis none of your friends will kill you if you read some girls blog...
lol


7 Things

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we've shared

It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
Now we're standing in the rain
But nothin's ever gonna change until you hear, my dear

Chorus
The 7 things I hate about you
The 7 things I hate about you
Oh you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks
And when you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and it's silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
And when you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it, I'll delete it
Let's be clear
I'm not coming back
You're taking 7 steps here

Chorus
The 7 things I hate about you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks
And when you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

Compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention
The 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you
You hair, your eyes, your old levi's
And when we kiss, I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hand in mine
When we're intertwined everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you

i guess i have told you about some of my closest friends, so its time to tell you a bit about myself..


Hey my name is Rikki.. no not lake... or martin... or bobby... just Rikki. i am totally not into stareotypes, but people like to put me in ones anyway, say what you want about me or my friends behind our backs but you say one wrong thing in front of our faces i will have the last word, and you might be eating my fist or my foot. I can be a very agresive person but im usually pretty calm about things, and i may look sweet and inocint... but im not ;) i love having half my thoughts like a guys cause then i have some idea of whats goin on in their heads. I would love to find that "special someone" i found her sort of but she is my best friend, now i just need a guy in my life, I may be Bi but I mostly like guys... Girls are fun to play with but to much drama... But so you wanna know more about me then message me or something :)


haha.. sorry i amuse myself..

Mondays suck..
more than sluts...
more than little kids with straws..
and definitly more than gay pornos..
Lmao had to make somthing funny for the begining...

but yeah i hate mondays whos with me??

stuck in the middle of freaking no where.. or i was anyway.. lmao. i am now officaily back in civilization!!! yay!!!! lol

so um i am back and ready for more fun filled friend days!!!!

so now im gonna talk about a few days ago....


i went and hung out with Taylor and tony again, this time i got there and they ordered pizza.. it had mushrooms on it.. eeww!!! lol but past that, we played guitar hero and rock band for a while.. then they got bored and we road bikes to the river.. mind you i was in a skirt.. hadest thing to do ever!!! then we got to the river and i didn't realy want to swim, well because of the whole skirt thing.. and then changed my mind and then learnd its not very easy to swim in a skirt... but all in all i had fun.. and so did they.. so thats it for now..

Hide all this sadness..

Between these words and a smile..

Disinigrate all the worry.

Just for today or for a while..
 

You say that you love me..

Or is it just a lie?

Is it just me that loves you?

Your gunna make me pry..

Loving causes sadness.

Sadness causes pain.

Running from your problems,

Is like running in the rain.

i hate tv.. there is never anything good on.. we dont even have anything good on our DVR.. lame ugh..

Tasha, yet another i could go on about.. she is like my sister.. but if we were sisters whoever our mother would be, would prolly die ether with laughter or insanity.. its so true just ask her..

i lover her to death and would kill a man for her.. seriously you hurt her i kill you...
but anyway... her and her emo punky preppy wanna B. self is like the cutest thing in the world.. she is like a kitten.. you want to smash her little face in because she pissed you off so bad... but you cant hurt her because she is to cute and sweet and cuddlie..

Rene.. what more could i say. she is beautiful, funny, sweet, sexy, loving, caring, and among other things she is my best friend...

she is my love and my best friend.. all i could ever need... but sadly she will be gone till agust in florida, taking care of her grandmother.
i love her with all of my heart, i could tell her anything.. and she tells me everything..

well if i keep going on about her i will end with you sleeping because i could go on forever...

Totally a taylor and tony thing..
my bestest guy friends..

Tony: cute, funny, sweet, lovable, 1 of the greatest guys ever!!
Taylor: adorable, funny sweet, totally my bro for life, also 1 of the greatest guys ever!!

k so taylor and tony are also best friends.. crazy they act worse then 5 year olds when we are all together.. lol but then again all three of us together is like a bunch of 5 year olds..

but lots of things happend when we ung out yesterday like tony and i walked from one side of town to the other.. longest walk ever.. i got monster on my shirt thanks to him.. :P
after we walked from 7-11 we went to the park then to connections or whatever its called (I will learn the name i promis..) and played pool for a while just to kill time before taylor got there.. after that we went to the park for a little longer then back to connections then taylor had to water plants for his grandma.. we hung there.. tony and i umm well lets not go there.. played in the sprinkler.. ok i played he chased me and other things.. we danced partyed a little.. ok a minnie party cause there was only 3 of us and we were stuck outside.. lol and then we went back to the park then to tony's house and we watched taylor play a a video game that i didn't pay attention to the name... had some water then i left... but yeah that was yesterday.. umm ill update you on the next time.. or talk about more friends later..
TTYL

my first blog.. wow this is lame.. just kinda bored... so um ya starting later on i will actually blog about something more interesting then this but ya dont really have anything to put here yet so...
TTFN